Whirlwind

Do you ever have those moments where you feel like life is just flying past you and as much as you try to slow down and savor every moment, there is just no enough time in the day, days in the week, or time on the weekends??

I feel like my mind is reeling with all of these things I want to accomplish in the next few weeks as well as things I NEED to accomplish or take care of in the next few weeks. Ive tried to mentally create some sort of order for this, timeline so to speak to help organize my thoughts and get priorities straight, but its not going well right now.

I used to rely on lists a lot, and then became overwhelmed with these lists and where to store them and how to group them.

My ranting, AKA blogging has also slowed due to my inability to focus my thoughts on one specific topic, or goal or idea.. or task at hand.

I have given up, my only priority is my kids and everything else should fall into place somewhere around it. It may not be the place I want it to be, or the ideal place for it to land at this specific time.. but I need to let go.

As I type this, I am saying (typing) one thing and trying SO HARD to allow myself to just do what I know is best.. and RELAX and let things be the way they will be, in time, everything will pass and I will be moving on to my next well planned task.. sooner or later.. right?

How does one successfully transition from being completely OCD and planning EVERYTHING to LAX and less stressed!?!?!?!??!

Traveling

This afternoon the kiddos and I will be on the road heading to visit family in Vermont!!

One would think with all this northeast weather that planning a trip in mid April would be deemed "safe". So much for that thought.

The original forecast was that my morning commute to work would be snowy and icy, which was ok as I figured by the time I was out of work and needed to travel, it would be melted.

When I woke up this morning it was sleeting, and on the way into work, they assured me that my drive home would be miserable. Awesome...

Needless to say, it will be snowing inland, so as I travel inland through my rain into the snow and over the mountain, I should successfully experience every weather phenomenon of this front that is passing through the north east. Lucky me.

Here is to safe travels, alone with 2 kids and a brand new vehicle!!

YIPPEE!!!

New wheels

I finally traded in my vehicle for a new one. Anyone who knows me, realizes this is HUGE. I have owned my current vehicle for 4 years. That is a record!!

I did finally find something I love though, and literally just bought a new version of my old car. The color is a smidge different and the inside is upgraded to leather and loaded features...but realistically, its only 2 years newer and feels the same.

On the plus side, I don't have to worry about the infamous blue smoke pouring from my exhaust which I had been accustomed to.

Now to save my pennies for the lovely registration of this beast.. hopefully I don't break the bank doing that!! YIKES!!!

Spring Weekend

FINALLY!!!

It was so nice this weekend, and by nice, I mean-no snow, no rain, no mud and no wet grass. It was a little chilly on Sunday, but the kids were outside the majority of the weekend.

Although it was too cold to stay outside for long intervals, it was nice to be outside and not have to worry about the boys being FILTHY, or soaked.

We had to go to Walmart to buy the small furry one some food, and of course, his $4 bag of food turned into a $100 shopping trip.

Both boys were behaving so I let them pick a small toy. B-man picked out a package of water balloons with a spout for the hose, and AJ picked out a bubble set. Needless to say Im sure B-man will run out of the balloons prior to when it is actually warm enough to fill them and toss them at each other, but he isnt quite grasping what I am saying with that topic.

This week is scheduled to the hilt and will likely be a crazy one!!

Preview-
Today, wait for call on new car and go sign paperwork, and then K leaves tonight for a few days. Also, our nephews bday was yesterday and some cake is in order for tonight, likely at our house.
Tuesday-another nephew is having a concert at school, and I will be working late since K is gone and I will have morning child duty and afternoon.

I cant even type the rest, the next two days on paper is making me anxious. :)

Sleepy

I once read that there is no such thing as "catching up on sleep". That in fact if you attempt to do this, you mess up your internal clock even more than you did on the night or nights when you missed out on the Zzzz's in the first place.

This past weekend I missed out on a lot of Zzzz's. Mostly due to the early morning wake up call from the kiddos on Easter morning, and the late bed time the night before from staying up to clean my house and prepare for the following day.

The past 2 mornings I have not wanted to get out of bed. This morning particularly, I felt as though I could stay in bed all day and sleep the day away.

Unfortunately, the alarm kept going off every 10 minutes, so I decided by 6:00 am that I should get up and head to work. 

As I sit here typing, all I can think about is how comfortable my bed and pillow would be and its literally like its calling my name right now. If I had my pillow, I could curl up under my desk and snooze; or maybe I can head out to my car and nap.... this is honestly all I am thinking about.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?

Doing the job I do, I can easily convince myself that there is something medically going on, and that it is serious and could even cause death. Yes, I know I am slightly looney. But I am being honest. I could really convince myself of this with no problem at all and have the tools to convince others that I am right.. its sick.

I am trying not to think about the potential cause for my fatigue, and also trying not to remind myself of the useless knowledge that I once read about not ever catching up on sleep.

The mind is a crazy thing... mine particularly is completely out of control this morning.