Sleepy

I once read that there is no such thing as "catching up on sleep". That in fact if you attempt to do this, you mess up your internal clock even more than you did on the night or nights when you missed out on the Zzzz's in the first place.

This past weekend I missed out on a lot of Zzzz's. Mostly due to the early morning wake up call from the kiddos on Easter morning, and the late bed time the night before from staying up to clean my house and prepare for the following day.

The past 2 mornings I have not wanted to get out of bed. This morning particularly, I felt as though I could stay in bed all day and sleep the day away.

Unfortunately, the alarm kept going off every 10 minutes, so I decided by 6:00 am that I should get up and head to work. 

As I sit here typing, all I can think about is how comfortable my bed and pillow would be and its literally like its calling my name right now. If I had my pillow, I could curl up under my desk and snooze; or maybe I can head out to my car and nap.... this is honestly all I am thinking about.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?

Doing the job I do, I can easily convince myself that there is something medically going on, and that it is serious and could even cause death. Yes, I know I am slightly looney. But I am being honest. I could really convince myself of this with no problem at all and have the tools to convince others that I am right.. its sick.

I am trying not to think about the potential cause for my fatigue, and also trying not to remind myself of the useless knowledge that I once read about not ever catching up on sleep.

The mind is a crazy thing... mine particularly is completely out of control this morning.